Ariel’s view
Ariel (in blue, in Gerland):
“Alright, I’m all yours now, what was it you wanted to talk about, Ruby?”
Ruby (young lady with bunny ears and tail):
“You said that while sensations aren’t exactly shared, your memories are? Does that apply for the doll you gave me too? Is it a clone like you are?”
Ariel:
“No, the doll I gave you is a different kind of clone. It won’t remember anything, and I won’t feel what happens to it. It really is just an elaborate doll.”
Ruby:
“... um… what if I wanted you to feel it?”
Ariel:
“Are you asking for a doll that will share what it feels with me?”
Ruby:
“I… I practice every night. I know I can make you feel good. It’s fun to try and get a good reaction from your doll… I want to know I can make you feel that way too. I want you to feel as good as the doll does.”
… At least she’s asking permission. It’s also kinda nice to know she trusts me enough to admit something like this. I’m really not sure how to answer though. Do I say yes and just get molested whenever she wants? I feel a little uncomfortable with that, yet I don’t really want to say no… This is like being confronted with a fantasy I never thought could happen, and thus never contemplated the real issues involved.
Ruby:
“It, it’s alright if you don’t want to. I understand you already have someone you love.”
Ariel:
*Pulls Ruby in for a hug* “I do love you too. I’m just trying to think this through. Getting pleasured like that without any warning or control could be awkward and disturbing regardless of how good it feels. So I can’t just say yes. I want to accept your love, and support you.”
I just modified the clone type used for the lifesize dolls last night to deliberately avoid sharing what they feel. Now Ruby wants me to share with her doll. No, she wants me to experience her love. She wants to express her love with the doll, and wants me to feel it. Knowing that it’s her doing it, and that she’s doing it out of love for me… I think I could enjoy that. I still need to put some restraints on it though.
Ariel:
“How about this: I’ll have the doll share what it feels with the me here with you, but not the others. So, I’ll be able to respond to it while here, and remember it too, without risking too much disruption.”
Ruby:
“This Ariel isn’t Sam’s?”
Ariel:
“This Ariel is staying in Gerland. As long as you don’t mind there being other Ariels with other people, this one can be yours.”
Ruby:
“Hmm… I love you Ariel. I don’t want to take you away from others. I just want to share my feelings for you, with you. I want to make you happy.”
*looks at Ariel and grins*
“I’ll give you good loving every night with the doll. You go do whatever you do at night, and enjoy it, alright?”
Ariel:
“Do you not want me with you at night?”
Ruby:
“Um… too nervous. Can’t do it with you here.”
Ariel:
“Considering how you earn money now, I find that a little surprising.”
Ruby:
“I can do that because it’s not real. It’s not really me, I just play a role. None of my real emotions and feelings are involved in sex work. It’s not even my real body. With the transformation amulet, I get to become whatever and whomever the customer wants. Anything other than me.”
Ariel:
“I see. I’m glad I get to be with you, the real you. Thank you.”
Ruby:
“You make me feel safe... well, safer. Less fear with you. Do you ever get angry? I’ve never seen you angry.”
Ariel:
“I remember getting angry in my past life, and I remember not liking it. I don’t think I’ve ever gotten angry in this life… I kinda hope I never do get angry, but now that I think about it, never getting angry is kinda weird. Another reminder I’m not who I used to be.”
Ruby:
“Do you wish you were who you used to be?”
Ariel:
“No. I hated myself back then. Failed at the things I cared about most. So far, I think who I am now is closer to who I wanted to be, than who I was. No reason to regret or complain about the change. Just hope I don’t stray from the hopes and dreams of my past. I can actually accomplish something now.”
Ruby:
“What do you hope and dream of?”
Ariel:
“Making life better for people. Fixing the world.”
Ruby:
“Is the world broken?”
Ariel:
“Well, it’s certainly not as good as it could be. It’s not just luxuries, but also about how people treat one another. As a monster, I’ve got the power to assist with ensuring there is no true scarcity. As someone with influence, I can now make a difference in how people treat one another too. With no hard limit on lifespan, I even have time to do it all. I just need to make sure I don’t lose sight of my goal, or forget what matters most.”
Ruby:
“What matters most?”
Ariel:
“People. Like you.”
Ruby:
“And Sam?”
Ariel:
“And Sam, and Adam, and everyone. I intend to focus on those closest to me first though. Like you.”
A second lover, and this one I’ve given permission to touch me whenever they want, however they want… I feel like I’m exposing myself to her in a way I haven’t with Sam. Yet, she also feels more distant. I hope someday she can gain the courage to be herself more. If nothing else, I hope she can share more of herself with me; being trapped behind a fake persona isn’t healthy, she needs someone she can be free with. I hope I’m not taking on more than I can handle.
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That night, in Ariel’s dreams
I’m having more trouble keeping track of which me I am, and what I’m doing and where I am than I expected. The different color dresses help, but isn’t really enough. Need to add a little local memory to each clone so they can more easily keep track of immediate concerns and obligations. The syncing doesn’t need to be altered, just a strengthening of self-awareness.
I wonder how many other surprises I’m gonna have to deal with. This really was early to be doing this. The planning and preparation weren’t finished at all, had to rush a way to make sleeping quarters for them all, and figure out how to let them sleep so I don’t have to deal with multiple bodies worth of boredom flooding my memories and messing with my mental development.
Thinking of sleep… I should probably plan on providing room and board for everyone who wants it, since I want to ensure even the poor can sign up for this.
Gah, so much work to do, not to mention the xp cost of all the additional brain power needed to handle it. Dang it, Fenix.
“I’ll give you good loving every night with the doll. You go do whatever you do at night, and enjoy it, alright?”
Ariel:
“Do you not want me with you at night?”
Ruby:
“Um… too nervous. Can’t do it with you here.”
Ariel:
“Considering how you earn money now, I find that a little surprising.”
Ruby:
“I can do that because it’s not real. It’s not really me, I just play a role. None of my real emotions and feelings are involved in sex work. It’s not even my real body. With the transformation amulet, I get to become whatever and whomever the customer wants. Anything other than me.”
Ariel:
“I see. I’m glad I get to be with you, the real you. Thank you.”
Ruby:
“You make me feel safe... well, safer. Less fear with you. Do you ever get angry? I’ve never seen you angry.”
Ariel:
“I remember getting angry in my past life, and I remember not liking it. I don’t think I’ve ever gotten angry in this life… I kinda hope I never do get angry, but now that I think about it, never getting angry is kinda weird. Another reminder I’m not who I used to be.”
Ruby:
“Do you wish you were who you used to be?”
Ariel:
“No. I hated myself back then. Failed at the things I cared about most. So far, I think who I am now is closer to who I wanted to be, than who I was. No reason to regret or complain about the change. Just hope I don’t stray from the hopes and dreams of my past. I can actually accomplish something now.”
Ruby:
“What do you hope and dream of?”
Ariel:
“Making life better for people. Fixing the world.”
Ruby:
“Is the world broken?”
Ariel:
“Well, it’s certainly not as good as it could be. It’s not just luxuries, but also about how people treat one another. As a monster, I’ve got the power to assist with ensuring there is no true scarcity. As someone with influence, I can now make a difference in how people treat one another too. With no hard limit on lifespan, I even have time to do it all. I just need to make sure I don’t lose sight of my goal, or forget what matters most.”
Ruby:
“What matters most?”
Ariel:
“People. Like you.”
Ruby:
“And Sam?”
Ariel:
“And Sam, and Adam, and everyone. I intend to focus on those closest to me first though. Like you.”
A second lover, and this one I’ve given permission to touch me whenever they want, however they want… I feel like I’m exposing myself to her in a way I haven’t with Sam. Yet, she also feels more distant. I hope someday she can gain the courage to be herself more. If nothing else, I hope she can share more of herself with me; being trapped behind a fake persona isn’t healthy, she needs someone she can be free with. I hope I’m not taking on more than I can handle.
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That night, in Ariel’s dreams
I’m having more trouble keeping track of which me I am, and what I’m doing and where I am than I expected. The different color dresses help, but isn’t really enough. Need to add a little local memory to each clone so they can more easily keep track of immediate concerns and obligations. The syncing doesn’t need to be altered, just a strengthening of self-awareness.
I wonder how many other surprises I’m gonna have to deal with. This really was early to be doing this. The planning and preparation weren’t finished at all, had to rush a way to make sleeping quarters for them all, and figure out how to let them sleep so I don’t have to deal with multiple bodies worth of boredom flooding my memories and messing with my mental development.
Thinking of sleep… I should probably plan on providing room and board for everyone who wants it, since I want to ensure even the poor can sign up for this.
Gah, so much work to do, not to mention the xp cost of all the additional brain power needed to handle it. Dang it, Fenix.
